It's a new year. Last year sucked so after today I'm going to leave it behind me. I meant to write this yesterday...
My mom passed in November. It still hasn't really hit me. I don't know if it will but, it was all so surreal. I woke up, went upstairs to give her a package, and she was gone. No illness. No event. No situation. She was just gone. I feel like I woke up that day, and nothing's been the same since. Like my life isn't really my life. I'm in a weird version of it... I think being in a new year will give me some closure.
Today is my new reality. I don't really have any resolutions but my plans are to finish school and get a good job. Maintain my living situation, and try to improve it. I'm feeling anxious about it. We're a month behind on rent. We'll figure things out. I have a small savings that I can use for bills and rent but it will only last a few months. I need to think of ways to make money while finishing school. So far my plan is to take things day by day, and do what I need to do for that day. Everything else in my life is okay. I just need to do this one thing.
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