3 good things 3-23-18

1. I forgot, I won $9 on a $1 lotto the other day.
2. It's Friday :D
3. My pets make me laugh so much.

3 Good Things 3-21-18

1. I can make a delicious meal out of nothing. It's a gift :D
2. I miss P. But I know he would be there if I needed him.
3. Everything goes the way it's supposed to.

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I bought a new phone on Tuesday. My son's phone broke and since he tends to be rough on phones, I gave him my phone, which was only 2 years old, and bought a new one. I'm still not used to it. Things are so different from phone to phone. It's weird to me. On the bright side, this phone has twice as much storage, so... I went looking for some new apps.

I came across one that's a daily gratitude journal. Every day, you write 3 things you're grateful for, or that give you positive thoughts. There are also prompts. For example, #1 said to say something good about yourself. #2 said to mention someone. #3 said to give yourself some advice. I like the idea, so I went with it. The app is called. Delightful, and, it is :)

Heading back to bed since I'm finally sleepy again. Good night Universe!

3 Good Things For 3-17-18:

1. Things after starting to fall into place.
2. I made a new local friend.
3. I'm resourceful.

Widow Walk - Gar Lasalle

Widow Walk by Gar Lasalle

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Afternoon Thoughts

Not a whole lot is really going on. I had a doctor's appointment yesterday. I told her about my Uncle's heart valve issue and my mom's mini strokes. She said I need to start working out again. I always start but it's doing it every day that I have the problem with. It needs to be done though. I'll sleep better. My anxiety will be less. My blood sugar will be more stable. I need to just suck it up and do it. I did bookmark some band workouts on my Sparkpeople mobile app. I can start walking and then use the bands for resistance training. I'll do it... I just need to get in the right mind frame and psych myself up :D

The house is still clean. I straighten up and do my Flylady stuff every day. I'm a bit blah on zone work but I do my Hotspots and decluttering, with the daily routines. It helps a lot. We had to call the maintenance guy awhile ago. There was a major leak under the sink, and the floor was half covered in water. We only had to run through the rooms putting a few things away, and I was able to let him in without saying, "Excuse the mess". Also, when I was sick, the house didn't fall apart. The kids have been washing dishes without being asked! I love what a difference these little changes have made.

We've been cooking at home, and cut out fast food. The kids started doing it for their New Years resolution and it's held pretty well :) Now, I continue cooking at home every day, to save money and eat better. We still get our once-in-awhile splurges like McD's ice cream cones but that's better than buying a half gallon of ice cream and eating it all. My mom's doctor told her that she's lost weight and her cholesterol is lower. I hope she appreciates eating at home more. A side bonus is, if I'm cooking at home, we're not out all the time and getting in late.

I know I've written about most of this already but, things are going well in those areas and I'm still excited by it :D On the negative, I'm still working on my sleep habits, and I woke up this morning in an anxiety attack. I'm working on all of it, but a bit at a time, in manageable sizes so I don't feel overwhelmed. I'm still using my planner to sort things out and get them out of my head. I've started the blanket I'm making for my nephew, and I have the youngest started on a project for the baby too. It will give me something to do besides playing the Sims, and Minecraft when I'm bored.

I'm going to go make something to munch on and wait for the kids to get home. I'm going to the bank later to get my name put on my mom's account, and we have to go and pay some bills. When I get home, we'll have Shake n Bake chicken, home made coleslaw and some other stuff. I've got this :D

Oh Really?

Last Friday

I haven't really been able to sit and write lately. I know it's because I've been living in my head without really trying to get it out.

Last Friday, I had a therapy appointment where I was telling my therapist about how high my stress level was. It turns out I was stressing myself out. I was worrying about things that didn't need worrying about. I was looking at the things I haven't done, and the things that I let overwhelm me. I was worried about my health, my mom's health, the kids and their problems.

I didn't need to do all of that. I've actually been doing really well so far this year. My house has been pretty much spotless. My kids are doing chores without being asked or yelled at. I'm slowly taking over the finances, so we aren't broke at the end of the month. We haven't had fast food but maybe once or twice since New Years. Things aren't all great but those are some really good changes. I think I'm more anxious because I'm not used to things being okay for very long.

Then... that night, my mom had a really bad fall. She cut a half inch gash into her nose and busted her upper and lower lip. It was so bad. Then, we noticed that she wasn't remembering anything. She was really disoriented, didn't know how she fell or where she was. I had a panic attack the whole way to the ER. I thought she had had a stroke and that we had lost her. I was terrified for so many reasons.

.... I handled it. I got her there, took care of her, made sure they took care of her. The middle kid stepped up and took care of things when I needed to make phone calls. I'm a bit stressed, and anxious, and tense, but, I can do this. I also have some really great people in my corner, encouraging me and supporting me. I feel okay :)

Today is my son's birthday. I baked him a cake which he'll love. It's a chocolate cake, two layers, and in between, chocolate pudding and sliced bananas. I'm going to head out and enjoy the rest of the day.