Afternoon Thoughts

Not a whole lot is really going on. I had a doctor's appointment yesterday. I told her about my Uncle's heart valve issue and my mom's mini strokes. She said I need to start working out again. I always start but it's doing it every day that I have the problem with. It needs to be done though. I'll sleep better. My anxiety will be less. My blood sugar will be more stable. I need to just suck it up and do it. I did bookmark some band workouts on my Sparkpeople mobile app. I can start walking and then use the bands for resistance training. I'll do it... I just need to get in the right mind frame and psych myself up :D

The house is still clean. I straighten up and do my Flylady stuff every day. I'm a bit blah on zone work but I do my Hotspots and decluttering, with the daily routines. It helps a lot. We had to call the maintenance guy awhile ago. There was a major leak under the sink, and the floor was half covered in water. We only had to run through the rooms putting a few things away, and I was able to let him in without saying, "Excuse the mess". Also, when I was sick, the house didn't fall apart. The kids have been washing dishes without being asked! I love what a difference these little changes have made.

We've been cooking at home, and cut out fast food. The kids started doing it for their New Years resolution and it's held pretty well :) Now, I continue cooking at home every day, to save money and eat better. We still get our once-in-awhile splurges like McD's ice cream cones but that's better than buying a half gallon of ice cream and eating it all. My mom's doctor told her that she's lost weight and her cholesterol is lower. I hope she appreciates eating at home more. A side bonus is, if I'm cooking at home, we're not out all the time and getting in late.

I know I've written about most of this already but, things are going well in those areas and I'm still excited by it :D On the negative, I'm still working on my sleep habits, and I woke up this morning in an anxiety attack. I'm working on all of it, but a bit at a time, in manageable sizes so I don't feel overwhelmed. I'm still using my planner to sort things out and get them out of my head. I've started the blanket I'm making for my nephew, and I have the youngest started on a project for the baby too. It will give me something to do besides playing the Sims, and Minecraft when I'm bored.

I'm going to go make something to munch on and wait for the kids to get home. I'm going to the bank later to get my name put on my mom's account, and we have to go and pay some bills. When I get home, we'll have Shake n Bake chicken, home made coleslaw and some other stuff. I've got this :D

Random Gaming Thoughts

I've been having a love/hate relationship with gaming. I love gaming. It relaxes me. It distracts me. Lately, I don't really enjoy it anymore. I used to play with my ex who was also my best friend. He made things fun, interesting, and it was nice to have someone to play with that made you feel like part of a team. Now, it's just kind of eh. There are people I can play with, but, it's not the same.

I have a few old friends who are going to buy the WoW expansion this coming week. They want me to help them catch up and then start running with them. I told them I would. It SHOULD be fun. I hope it is...

I wish Duck played games. I guess I could try to play League again. Maybe I should get back on Minecraft. Hmm...

Busy Busy

The beginning of the month is always busy. I run a lot of errands. Bills get paid. I take my son grocery shopping. I like to get as much as I can done at once. It saves on gas, time, and my sanity.

Last night, I was talking to someone who had meditative music on while he was studying his Bible. He had so many notebooks around him. He reads, takes notes and meditates on what it means in his life and to him. Why it's all relevant. I used to do that when I was a kid and I was going to regular religious meetings. I always took notes. I'd write the talk subject, who gave it, date, and take notes and write down scriptures. Throughout the week, I'd go over it and do a bit of research.

To me, the Bible was so many different things. A moral compass, a story book. It had important lessons, proverbs, letters to people that were important for the time they were in. Even if it didn't have anything to do with my life, I found it interesting. There were a lot of questionable things in there but I took the good with the not so good.

Hmm, what else has been going on... Oh, I've been playing some Minecraft. I have 3 friends who have servers, and I jump on all of them depending on if anyone's on or not. One friend is all about building machines. He loves redstone and is always showing me his latest inventions. I had a farm going and he automated it. He just built me a shooting gallery! There are zombie/skeleton spawners at the top, and water bringing them down. They get to a certain point and there's a lava drop down, so they can't hurt me much. My job is to... save them from lava hell! It's great! The skeleton spawner is thrown in to turn it up a level. I'm having fun with it.

My other friend has a nice server that most of her friends get to jump on. I've met some cool people and they all help each other in game. One girl has this really cool, tiered house. Each level is something different. There's a flower garden, tree farm, a nice portal room... I love seeing what people have built in Minecraft.

I'm going to bed later than I planned to. I'm usually in bed by 11:30 at the latest. The last two nights I've been going to bed later but, I've been really anxious. I still wake up early though so I know it will fix itself. So, going to put my dog in her spot, and sleep. zzzzzZZZZzzz

P.S. Still miss him.